It appears that some of my worst fears have come true I have to change the way I eat and I have to give up/reduce the meat in my diet.
Am I scared? Of course I am I have never imagined life without a steak or fried chicken.
There is something quite humorous about this whole thing and you are probably thinking what could be funny about any of this? About seven years ago I met my soul mate that at the time was partial vegetarian. I remember saying I’m making a pork chop sandwich for dinner when we spoke and the silence was so thick you couldn’t even cut it because we lived on two ends of the spectrum when it came to food. I used to think hum I am not sure how this will work out but love prevails and it’ll be okay. I’m so passionate about food I converted my soul mate back to eating meat. We have over the years laughed about how it all went down and it was completely unexpected. I just know how too cook pretty dam good I always say. Now, when I go to the store I purchase excess amounts of fruits and vegetables. I cook very little meat and now the tables have turned.
First it started with “clean foods” I did some reading and discovered that a lot of the preservatives that I was ingesting are bad for me and almost all of them cause cancer. I’m absolutely guilty of convenience foods I do not use a lot of boxed or premade goods but stuff like biscuits or cake mix from scratch was something I had believed to take up too much time and effort. I have made them on occasion from scratch and didn’t think it was possible on a daily basis to make them that way all the time. Now, I know I can minimize the time and still make everything from the basics so I know what is going in my food to start with.
Second I decided that I was going to go partial vegetarian. Not only because it was hurting me but I read and saw something’s that gave the inside story on how host animals are treated before consumption and it made me absolutely sick to my stomach. When your body goes into shock it naturally shots out toxins as a defense mechanism so the meat we are ingesting is not only filled with loads of hormones but toxins from going into shock. We agreed that if we absolutely had to have meat we’d choose organic or certified hormone free meats. We agreed to reverse the food pyramid and consume 73% fruits and veggies 10% grains and pasta, 10% beans and nuts, 5% healthy fats, and 2% to 0% animal products.
When I did the juicing fast I lost almost 20lbs in a week and felt like a new person. I know that a dietary change is the best direction for me and I realize that only a drastic one will make a difference in life or death for me.
Will I have moments of weakness of course I will I am human and I’m teetering on the weakness pitfall as is but I think if I can focus on the basics and remind myself that I can do it then I will in fact be able to accomplish fighting off the evil within and becoming a new person.
Nothing is certain when you feel like things are bleak for you the only thing that you can truly do is “put your big girl panties on” and fight till the end. I have a legacy to fulfill… I have an obligation to be a mother to my son whom I love with all my heart.
If I allow myself to perish now so early in life he wouldn’t be able to say I tried. Here’s too a new ME!
